#angelbaby

I think 21 has unlocked a new level of bravery in me. Being an angel mommy isn't something I openly share with people, and for the most part, I've kept pictures of myself at a minimum on this page. Hell, I haven't even revealed my name. Well, I guess today is the day I rip the band-aid off.

Here is my re-introduction.

Hi. My name is Aisha (pronounced I-EE-SHA). I'm now 21 years old and on March 6th, I said goodbye to the biggest blessing God has given me this far, my son. My journey into motherhood was not the normal way it happens, I'm proud to be a mommy. The mommy of an angel. My angel. Sebastian.

Sebastian has grown me up in ways I can't explain. And while I mourn his death daily, I also thank God for taking him away. I was not ready for a baby. And it took him being here and being taken away to realize that. Me having him at my age wouldn't have been a mistake, nor would it have been disastrous. What it would have been was hard.

I wouldn't have been able to give my precious baby boy the life he deserved. I wouldn't have been able to provide for him. I would have been raising him in a home away from his father. I would have been struggling to take care of him. And he doesn't deserve that. He deserves the best. He deserves the greatest that life has to offer.

So because of him, I live my life every day trying to be better for his little brothers and sisters that are coming in time. I strive to make as big a mark as I can possibly make in this world while I'm alive. Not just for me, but for him too. I am his earthly representative. His words speak through me. His life is lived through me. I am his witness. I am his legacy. And I am his mommy.

This is not the normal, mushy post that I usually do. What it is, is a reality I had to face not long ago. No matter how badly I want a child, once I get pregnant, it's no longer about me. It becomes all about the baby, and their stability. And their future. And their needs. Sebastian took off my rose colored glasses and made me see the real world. A world of major responsibility and necessary maturity. Sebastian grew me. And I think that's the best birthday present I've gotten this year.

#growth #maturity #21

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✨🌸🍃Even though she's married, she'll always be my Angelbaby!!🍃🌸✨ #alwaysandforever #brittandjer #angelbaby #godisgood #family #heartbyrne

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4 years ago today you went to heaven. I know you and your little sibling are happy up there playing together and watching over us down here, but we still miss you very much and we always will 👼🏻 #angel #angelwings #angelbaby #babyloss #babylossawareness #heaven #gonetoosoon

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고구마 간식 맛있어요+_+
애미가 귀찮아서 맛있는건 못만들겠고 급한대로 호박고구마~~~
씩씩한 우리 딸❤️❤️❤️
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#아기간식 #호박고구마
#아직은맛이별로임
#과자보다 #고구마가낫지
#홍세리 #홍세리370일
#22weeks

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Комплект на выписку "Джентельмен"🎩
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Нежный велюровый комплект "Розовая сказка" для самых милых принцесс🎀
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📲телефон в шапке профиля👆🏼. Комментарии теряются. 🏠Мы находимся в г.Краснодар, СБС Мегамолл, 3 этаж, магазин Ангел Baby
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If I give you puppy eyes will you stop taking pictures 🙄#angelbaby

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September 19, 2017 was the due date for our angel baby. It's been an emotional journey but God has different plans with our #rainbowbaby arriving in November! #misscarriage #1in4 #angelbaby #remembrance

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Here's a wee project that I enjoyed doing so much. I was asked by a couple girls to do a memorial painting for one of their close friends who had had a still birth full term a few years ago. Their daughters were all born within a few months of that tragic event. To show that their hearts are with her they wanted to depict their three girls together. Still friends forever. My heart goes out to this stranger.
Swipe right to see progression.

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God sent angels down to earth in the form of Dogs 🐶 with notes saying don't judge, JUST LOVE ❤️. They ate the notes but they keep trying to deliver the message. -Unknown •
Three years ago today my angel sent down from Heaven, came to rescue me & everyday I thank God for her because she is my world 🌎! My heart ❤️ & capacity for love ❤️ grew on this day 3 years ago. Roxy Violet, you complete me! ❤️🐶❤️

#furmom #myworld🌍 #iamsohappy

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Last year when the flood took my home I let my kids draw on the walls before we sealed them back up. After this flood I went to clean up and I saw the picture my daughter drew last year of our family I didn't even know the sex of the baby, but there she was like she was always meant to be " my baby girl 💕". I forgot all about it not knowing it would be there seeing it again took my breath away. It's the only picture I have of us all together, I don't even own an actual photograph. Before the walls our sealed back up again I'm going to give Valentina her halo and angel wings☁️☁️👼🏻#loveyouvalentinaabigail#loveyoujsebastian#loveyoubiancavalentina#ourstorytenyearsapart#angelbaby

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When the cone's too big for her face and cage😂❤😭🙈 #mylittletrooper #angelbaby #dezzzygirl #strongestmonkeyiknow

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Hey, baby. Dinner run. 🌯🌶#angelbaby

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My biggest blessings! Reason my heart beats! She is his world and he is hers! #angelbaby #peanut #gma #ggma

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Ya wouldn't think such serious mood swings would come from this perfect little 👼🏼
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Basic avocado toast gets a new twist with shelled pumpkin or sunflower seeds as the crunchy finishing touch.

Total Time: 10 min.
Prep Time: 10 min.
Cooking Time: None
Yield: 4 servings

Ingredients:
1 ripe medium avocado, mashed
1 dash sea salt
1 dash fresh ground black pepper
½ tsp. crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
2 tsp. fresh lime (or lemon juice)
4 slices low-sodium sprouted whole-grain bread, toasted
¼ cup raw pumpkin (or sunflower) seeds, toasted

Preparation:
1. Combine avocado, salt, pepper, pepper flakes (if desired), and lime juice in a medium bowl; mash until well mixed and slightly chunky.
2. Evenly spread avocado onto each slice of toast. Top evenly with pumpkin seeds.
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#familiesareforever #mytribe #familyfirst #fightforit

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Today I'm greatful for the time we did have with our little one💕 it may have been short, this may have been the only time we were able to see him but he is so very loved💕 I love being able to see him everyday and know he is always near! Mommy and daddy love you baby bean!💕 #angelbaby #angelmommy #miscarriageawareness #alwaysloved

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Did you know mothers who have suffered a miscarriage or loss of a child are more likely to develop anxiety and/or depression? If I have any of you mama's who need a friend to talk to I promise to drop what I'm doing to talk to you. Please don't think you are alone because you are NOT ALONE!
Hugs,
Jeannette

Miscarriage and Infant Loss Awareness month is next month! Orders are starting to ship mama's. Thank you all for your patience while I work hard to customize every bracelet, necklace and ring. ❤❤❤ #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infant #loss #mama #angelbaby #awareness #youarenotalone

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Your first birthday would be a little over a month from now. I think of you everyday my little angel💙 3/17/16 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #angelbaby

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NOT GONNA LIE

I don't know if it was the change in weather or what, but today was kind of a crappy day. Nothing went wring per-say, it was just a low energy kind of day.
I'm human and definitely not perfect, and am allowed to be in a funk for a bit...but the thing is.... is that it doesn't serve me or anyone else for that matter.
So what did I do?
A quick 15 minute workout to get my adrenaline going and put my attention on this face. Her innocence, her sweet soul melts my heart. And then I think...what kind of example do I want to set for her? How am I going to help her navigate through her emotions? Because even though she's still itty bitty, I know she's watching and soaking up everything.

Fast forward a few hours, and now I'm showered, nursing, and going to get ready to have some sush with my girl! Yum!!! What are some of the things you do to get out of a funk?

#nellamarin #whereisyourfocus #angelbaby #thoseeyes #blueeyedbabygirl #5monthsold #loveher

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I'll stop missing you when I'm with you. 9.19.15 👼🏻😔

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Thank Heaven for little girls 💗💕💗 #angelbaby #merrittramey #merbear #latergram

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