19 | south florida eckerd college c/o 2019 your local emo nerd
happy #internationaldayofhappiness 🌸 here's a photo from when i was trying to recover from my eating disorder but was extremely sick and bedridden for a good two months because of horrible stomach problems. this photo was taken after i went to the soccer fields by my house and touched a ball for the first time in four and a half months because i just couldn't take not playing anymore. i was so happy to finally run around after not having the energy, motivation, or wellness to. even though i still struggle with my stomach problems sometimes, soccer is my motivation to push through recovery and push through the bad days. so here's a pic of me, very malnourished (not by choice) but extremely happy because of the one thing i love most in the world: soccer⚽️💕
since it's national eating disorder awareness week, here's a picture of me that's pretty recent. i may not be super toned or have abs anymore like i did at this time last year, but i'm also not eating less than 1200 calories a day and overexercising like i was last year. this is me. this is my body. it's healthy. last year when i looked "fit", i wasn't. my body was so malnourished that after i got home from college i didn't even have the energy to get out of bed anymore, let alone work out. i was 110 lbs and still thought i was fat. i wasn't even able to get my period for several months because i wasn't feeding and treating my body properly. so this is me, healthy. how much do i weigh? i have no idea, and i don't care. i'm happy with my body and my stomach (which was the place i used to hate the most on my body) but my stomach is cute and it's rolls when i sit down are cute and i don't care if i don't fit into society's rules of "skinny" or whatever. i'm healthy, and that's good enough for me #neda #nedaawareness #nedawarenessweek #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderawareness
five years clean of self-harm, but sometimes it feels like just yesterday. i remember not being able to wear short sleeves to school because my arms were full of cuts and scars. to anyone struggling with depression, i promise you it gets better. i'm living proof of that. sometimes i still have bad days, but that's life. you are stronger than whatever gives you that urge to cut or burn or mutilate yourself. to anyone struggling, please reach out to a family member, friend, or health professional that can help you. it's important that you don't go through this alone and get the care you need.
a re-edit of @untomoriafl back from hope fest in november 😎 (first time ever shooting live music, and the original edit can be found if you scroll back on my page... the progress i've made in these fast few months is incredible) #photography #musicphotography #livemusicphotography #concertphotography #liveconcertphotography #canon7dmarkii #canon #teamcanon #2470mm