desibaddie

A desi girl with an obsession over bollywood and other aesthetics❤️🌷bae: @deepikapadukone ❤️

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She looks stunning in this dress! @sonamkapoor 💛

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My soul is tired
Yet the mind is awake
Don't know how much I’ll take
Hearing the sound of my heart break
The people around me so fake
Don't know what's worse
Being stabbed from behind
Or in the front
From the ones whom you relied upon
For never hurting you
But only if i knew
Everyhting i have to go through
This life feels like a curse
It only gets worse...

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The whole controversy around the Padmavati movie makes me so annoyed tbh. The cast and the director of the film have recieved so many treaths about death and violence by the so called rajput caste. They think that their honor will vanish because of the movie plot. The rajputs claim that the movie includes a romance scene between padmavati (hindu queen) and khilji (muslim sultan) when Sanjay denied those rumors. Yet their offering millions of money to kill deepika and sanjay from what i’ve heard. This is why Padmavati has been postponed ugh. I mean the movie isn’t even historically true. Rani Padmavati never existed as a person. She originated in an epic poem called Padmavat written by Malik Muhammad Jayasi where Sanjay got his inspiration from. Then why are you rajputs so angry? Gtfo srsly.

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You’re drifting away from me slowly
It doesn’t bother you
This person you knew yesterday
Has occupied your heart
The eyes are blinded
By the illusion of love
Why can’t you see?
The bitter truth disguising itself like a sweet lie
A lie so sweet
It'll crush you in the end
You have to wake up
Wake up from the drug
The effect only lasts for a period of time
Yet you abandon whom you’ve known for a lifetime
Why is this love so cruel
If this feeling makes you forget everyone else, but your lover
Then I don't want it.

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I’ve seen things you havent
No one will ever know
The incidents are hard to explain
They keep replaying in my head
Like they belong there
forever
I dont know what home feels like anymore
Im longing for something
Yet I can’t put my finger on it
These words spill from my fingers
The words of my heart
As much as I try to ignore its voice
My heart yearns louder than the words
The ride hasn’t been easy
But my God you learn
You learn
life.

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Any song tips? Comment below if you have some dope music❤️ it can be anything

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Trying to get rid of this theme😅 cant wait to go back to my beige one!

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Insomniac nights
Mental fights
Coping with life
Don't know what's right
The mind wide awake
Shut up for God's sake
Suffocating in my way of thinking
In life I'm sinking
Left alone by myself
Whilst searching for help
Trying to find a goal
So I can find peace within my soul
And see the world as whole

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I'm suffocating
Whilst fighting battles within myself
Trying so hard to keep up with others
With sleepless nights
And worried days
I disguise my pain
So I don't look insane
I force a smile
As I tell them lies
"I'm fine" I say
"Help me" I pray
Life goes on
Everyone's gone
Save me from the storm...

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Looking back
A smile forms on my mouth,
As tears stream down my cheeks.
Memories are beautiful, yet they make your heart ache.
Who knew we would end up like this?
On our seperate ways,
Different lives,
Everyone fighting battles within themselves.
From long conversations,
To a short reply,
We're away from each other.
But life goes on.
Time doesn't stop.
Time flies,
Yet it stands froze on it's spot.
Looking back I realize how blessed I was.
Another lesson learned,
Never take anything for granted.
We shared smiles and laughter,
Happiness and joy,
We were in this togheter,
Until life changed it in a split second.

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While being sucked up in this illusion,
My eyes have cried an ocean of tears.
I'm trying to find a solution.
It has been going on for years.
Wrong expectations,
and high hopes,
I need to stop the temptations.
They're no good for me.
Why can’t I see?
I'm after something
Which is not destined to be mine.
I'm running out of time,
I have wasted so much,
All this for nothing.
Time to wake up.
Open my eyes,
Realize the lies.
Take control of this game,
With God by my side,
I'm the only one to blame.
In my heart He reside.
Time to shut the toxic mind,
And change my life to grind,
And that's when I know,
I'm doing what it takes
To finally grow. 🥀

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Don't get fooled when a guy shows you one bit of attention. Don't mistake it for love. Or else it might cause you major heartbreak in the future. Sometimes they're not the problem or the cause of our destruction but ourselves. We expect too much. Like a blindfold in front of our eyes we think we see everything clearly but we don't. It's usually what we make up in our heads because of someone's action towards you that lead to misunderstandings. We interpret things the way we want to see it. Because at that time we're so in love with that person, we want to make things go right. This is the reality, and it's usually not like how you THINK it is. That's why I believe that the mind can be your biggest enemy. You have to learn to take control of it.

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The eyes are useless
When the mind
Is blind
Everything is clear
But the vision blurry
The lies being told
Makes you think you know everything about me
How come you believe things so easily?
They earned my trust
And crushed it
They stabbed me in the back
Throwing more salt onto my wounds
Getting the satisfaction
Of watching me suffer
You're on their side
Backing those
Whose
Raging with jealousy
You barely know me
Yet you utter every word about me
Like you’ve known me for a lifetime...

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I’m isolated in this dark place
It feels as though I’m being trapped
In a cage
Counting days for my release
Wonder if that will ever happen
Keeping my hopes up
Holding my head high
in this brutal storm
Whilst fighting battles within myself
I want to be free
Like the bird
Spreading its wings
And flying to anywhere
But here.🕊️

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You were so toxic
That being with you
Felt like an endless torture
It was like drinking
The same poision
Everyday
Both living and dying
Day by day
It felt as though
My heart was aching
Yet I ripped it out for you
To hurt me
Over and over again
And i didnt realize
Until you dug the knife
Deeper into my chest
Without any feeling
of guilt
In your eyes...

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People have no idea how much it hurts when they talk to you like they know everything. But there's more to the story than what they see. Usually what they see might not always be the truth. It's like you know yourself well enough, yet what they say about you affect you. It stings and hit you right in the feels. You become so frustrated that you start to believe them. You spend nights crying over the words being repeated in your head. They remain like echoes in your head. Echoes that’s suffocating you. You’ve been through so many obstacles in your life, you’ve encountered and accomplished so many things. The path may have been different from others. But that doesn’t make you weaker. Yet us people see things from our perspective and think we’re greater than others because we’re faster or better than them in life situations. Do you even think twice before you spit out those words? The words that might affect and ruin them? Because ignorant people like you think you know everything about them, right? How can you claim so much? Why are you talking to them as if you’re with them 24/7? As if you know them better than they do? Never let their words get to you when you know how much you’ve done, how much pain you've been through, only to come this far. This life is not a competition, but how much you become a better version of yourself for each day that goes by.

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Just because you're hurting doesn't give you the right to bruise other souls. Of course we all go through bad times, we're stricken with calamities, we're in hardships. But some might deal with it differently than others. It makes them so frustrated that they take their anger out on everyone else. Not knowing that they might hurting as well. Just because they choose to hide it doesn't mean that they're the happiest ppl on earth. If you're suffering from mental illnesses, you have to make an effort in order to overcome it. Don't just say it with your words but show it in your actions. Because complaining about that you're re not capable of doing something because of your mental illness isn't going to change it unless you decide to take control of it. Trust me, nothing is impossible even if you have anxiety. You just have to control your mind and thoughts in order to change it. You can shut those voices in your head which tells you otherwise if you believe YOU CAN. There's no such thing as 'I can't do it'. If you're not willing to change that or don't show any effort you basically can't. You have to push yourself further, step out of your comfort zone, do things which you don't like in order to overcome your anxiety. Take risks. It might be scary in the start but it will be worth it once you've taken the risks. Because every risk you take feels like an accomplishment. It's a slow process but you'll progress once you look back at how different you used to be, how much the mental illnesses held you back of something you wanted to do but couldn't. You have to believe that YOU CAN. Because no one is born with a mental illness. It's life situations that have caused it. But you have to do something with it and not just accept it if you want to progress! And if ppl are telling you to step out of your comfort zone. THEN DO IT. It's for your own good not to mock your mental illness. If you chose to see negatively on the world and count more problems than blessings, then it will have a negative outcome. It's all in our mind, we just have to learn to see things differently and take control of our thoughts. DON'T LET IT TAKE CONTROL OVER YOU!!!!

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It's crazy that school will teach everything else but mental health. I think it's important to get to know the mental illnesses and understand this subject on a deeper level so we can know how it's like for those who suffer from it. We should srsly raise awareness against this. And im sure everyone's been through a phase or a moment in their life when they've felt anxiety, depression etc. But it's like the schooling system is so ignorant about it. They know that many suffer, yet they choose to overlook it and conceal it. Like no matter what you're going through you still have to get up to school and pretend like everything is okay. And the fact that this is the reality of this world and how much ppl actually do care sickens me.

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Happiness has taught me
To never take things for granted.
While hardships have taught me
To hold your head high.
Regardless of the pain,
Or the storm,
You can make it through.
If you believe,
Only if you believe,
That you can.🥀

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I have seen death twice,
Those times were cold as ice.
I learned a lesson from an angel by the name of death.
Everyday I would be in question,
How Lord could take it away from me,
But it was only to make them stop suffering.
Allah plans everything according to the right time.
Yet, this darkness never seems to leave me,
The peace of mind vanish,
When I’m reminded by those moments.
I lost my loved ones.
Seeing them in this bizarre state,
Still lingers through my mind.
Like a demon finding its way back to me.
Sleepless nights and mental fights,
That's what I had to cope with after the loss,
The loss of those who taught me love.
If I knew you had so little time,
I would hold you,
forever,
In my arms,
Here with me.

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I don't know where I'm going,
But I believe God will provide a way.
Being optimistic in this chaos
Isn't always easy.
It feels like I've been waiting forever.
And it's from that moment
I realized;
A smile can hide so many feelings.
No one will ever know,
What hardship you're dealing with.
But Allah knows,
And that's enough.
Don't be fooled by my apperance.
I may look happy,
Whilst my heart is shattering inside.
I was hopeless and broken,
Until I found You.
I know I'm not there yet,
But I'm trying.
When hardships occurs
I'm reminded by the thought of You.
This dunya isn't my permanent home.
Ya Allah guide me on the right path.
I don't know,
But I'm going with the flow
And believe God will provide a way.🥀
(Btw: what do you believe in?)

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They did what they promised they'd never do
They forgot me
My old beloved ones
They forgot me
As easy as a passing thought
They forgot me
Not remembering the memories we had
They forgot me
Regardless of everything I've done to them
They forgot me
Having new affairs with new faces
They forgot me
As if I never existed
They forgot me
As if the moments never meant anything to them
Or could it be perhaps; someone feel more than others?

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Your words
They sting
For every word you spill
I hiss at the pain
It's like my scars being opened again
The wounds never wanting to heal
Because you don't let them
Your words hurt
I'm being stabbed in the front
You dig the knife deeper
Till you're satisfied
With my suffering
The blood is on your hands
Yet you claim it's my fault
I start to believe you
But the feeling in my heart tells me otherwise
Every word you utter
Affects the way I look at myself
And it makes me want to
Be anyone else
But me...

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She nailed this movie😍😭❤️ #omshantiom

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"Who is that person, tell us as well
Her picture, show it to us as well
Don't tell these stories to all
But don't hide it from your friends
Don't hide it
I'll treat the pain in your heart
If nothing then at least I'll pray
She will come struggling
You'll attain her
Your beloved" 🥀

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"We make the impossible possible and the possible impossible
When the three of us get together in one place"🥀 (one of my favorite movies of all time)

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All I can do is to think of you. The thought of you lingers in my mind. I can’t seem to get you out of my head. Your absence is suffocating me, I can barely breath. It's been years but the memory of you is here still. The scenes replaying, the times when life was a dance on roses. When the grass was greener. You're gone and everyones grieving. It's been years but we can’t forget. After everything we went through, there's a silence lingering around us. A silence so unfamiliar, it makes me sick. You came with love and light. And you left with darkness and sorrow. Ties are cut and relationships broken. You kept us togheter. I’m sorry for everything you had to go through. I’m sorry for what you had to witness on your last days. I hope you’re in a better place. May you rest in peace...🥀

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"All I wanted was for us to be together, but not like this". 🥀

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"You will never understand the damage you did to someone until the same thing is done to you.."🥀

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"You taught me a lot about love, even if you couldn't give it to me.."🥀

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