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it’s been a good 9 years. this dog is more than a dog. he’s sat next to my mom, unmoving on her worst days, just to comfort her and make sure she was never alone. he’s listened to a lot of my rants and licked up a lot of my tears. he’s been the best service dog anyone could ask for. he’s the embodiment of a good boy. i love him more than i can express. rest easy little buddy, say hey to mom for me.
this year i’m thankful for a support system that never waivers. this has most definitely been the worst year of my life, but the people you see here have never left my side no matter how mad, depressed, or anxious i may have gotten over the days. i love these people with my entire soul and am so so grateful and blessed to have each and every one of them in my life. they’ve been there for me day and night.
to daniel: thank you for helping me find my dad at 1 am. thank you for always keeping me in check and not letting me get away with stupid shit. thank you for making me stay when i hit that car instead of making a break for it. thank you for loving me no matter how much i make you not want to.
to camille: thank you for remaining positive no matter what. even though sometimes i just need to scream and be depressed, you’re always there to make things better. you’re such an inspiration and an uplifting spirit and i wouldn’t trade you for anything.
to jacob: thank you for making me laugh no matter what’s going on. thanks for letting me steal your clothes. they’ve kept me warm and sane over the past few months. thank you for always giving me a hug at the end of each day. it makes everything so much better. thank you for for being absolutely impossible to stay mad at. thank you for loving me in all of my issues.
to mackenzie: thank you for always being up for anything. thank you for always being there when i need you, and even when i don’t. thank you for being everything i could ask for in a best friend. i am so glad that i did drumline, no matter how painful it was, so that i could meet you. you’re my soul mole and i love you so much. thank you for keeping it real and making me laugh along the way.
thank you to everyone who has checked up on me, brought my family food, taken me shopping, offered help in every way shape and form. it’s done wonders for our recovery and helped us feel loved and taken care of in the darkest times.
thank you to my therapist, deanna, for making me feel validated and loved no matter what my issues are. you are probably my most favorite person on the earth. i can’t even begin to thank you enough for everything.
much love from the weeks fam.
it’s been six months since i’ve seen you. six months since i’ve hugged you. six months since you’ve rubbed my back while i ugly cried on the floor. six months since i’ve laughed at your jokes. six months since you’ve punched me in the arm playfully to the beat of your favorite songs. six months since you’ve told me to “shut up and think with your brain”. i miss you more and more as the days go on. it’s been half a year. this doesn’t get any easier with time. half a year without my mom.
love your family. you never know which day will be the last day you see someone.
this picture's pretty old. 17 years old to be exact. in my 17 years on earth, i have never met someone as loyal, as caring, and as amazing as erin gundersen. happy birthday to my closest friend, my womb pal, and my queen. i love you more than anything and i can't wait for all the life adventures that are to come. you are truly everything i could ever dream of as a friend.
yesterday, 5/15/17, the strongest, most loving, caring, compassionate, and amazing woman i have ever had the privilege of loving passed away. my mom, my rock, and my confidant is gone. i, and the rest of my family, will miss her dearly. she is no longer struggling, she is no longer hurting.
there will be a memorial service at 1:00 pm on saturday in the sanctuary at crosspoint to remember and celebrate her life. all are invited to come.
i love you mom. thank you so much for everything you've taught me. rest easy
happy mother's day. as some of you may know, my mom is in the hospital right now, in intensive care due to a pulmonary embolism, which is a blood clot in both of her lungs. i'm done using social media to portray some sort of fake happiness just so that people will think everything's alright. everything isn't alright. my mom could die today. after a long, treacherous, four year fight, this could be it. this could be what takes my mom's life. she is so tired. she is the strongest fucking woman i have ever met. she is so faithful to the Lord that while she is on a breathing machine that basically breathes for her, she wrote down scripture on the legal pad the ICU gave her, in the shakiest hand writing i've ever seen. she is a fighter. she's tried so hard. i am so angry, so exhausted in my faith. how could a loving God allow someone so undeserving to suffer to this extent? it will be hard for me to forgive Him for this.
so i encourage you all to just take a step back. look at everything from a new perspective. the things that we worry about on a daily basis mean NOTHING, like who hurt who's feelings, and who did this and who slept with who. literally WHO CARES!!!!! none of that matters! this is what matters. family and real life crises.
hug your mom today. hug her for me, because i can't hug mine, and who knows if i ever will again. cherish your mom and never ever let go.
yesterday was the 3 year anniversary of my mom's cancer diagnosis. these years have brought quite a few ups and quite a few downs, but i'm happy to say that i've still got one heck of a mom by my side who never stops fighting. she's definitely one of the strongest people i know. much love momma