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πŸ‡ΈπŸ‡»πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ 04.16.92πŸŽŠβ™ˆοΈ CSUN: Psych & CADV BAsπŸŽ“ NursingπŸ’‰πŸŽ’ BarΓ§a⚽️ Patriots🏈 Pens🐧/DucksπŸ¦†πŸ’ 5Ks X 1️⃣5️⃣ Mud Runs X 2️⃣ HalfMarathonsπŸ…X 3️⃣ LA MarathonsπŸ…X 4️⃣

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[11.17] #Flashback #Friday!! It’s just such a #fallesque photo, I found the NEED to post it!! πŸ˜…πŸ‚ #Fall #WinterIsComing #Nature #Esmearez #Smile #IWishCaliHadABetterFall #FallSeason

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[11.05] This is my story: Growing up, I struggled with self-harm. I began really young! I thought that cutting was the ONLY outlet I had. I felt relieved after each time that that blade touched my skin and brought blood out. I thought that I was born to just suffer. I dug and dug myself into a hole. Deeper and deeper I went into the darkness. I went through many trials and experiences in my life. Many that damaged and affected me profoundly. In 2013 I had decided I didn’t want to live another day on this planet. What for? What was the point? And so I finished classes and began my walk to the bus stop so I may head home and go through with my plans to end my life. On my way, I decided to take a different route than I usually took. In that route I would bump into my good friend Justin. He noticed something was off. He asked β€œEsther, is something wrong?” Of course as if in β€œAuto pilot” I answered no. But he then said, β€œSomething is wrong. I know it because the usual light and spark that usually shines in your eyes is gone!” Long story short. I found the courage to say β€œI need help.” Thankfully I found it. I stand here, alive and breathing because of people like HIM! Who have taken the time to check up on me and just listen to me. People who have opened their hearts and arms to me. To those who have found it in their heart to not only comfort my brokenness, but accept it too. To those who have REALLY stuck by my side through my darkest of days. I KNOW it hasn’t and isn’t easy dealing with me when I go into that dark zone. However, I hope you KNOW I am VERY grateful! 2013 was a HUGE turn for me. I’m not going to sit here and say, β€œALL became great and fairy tale perfect.” Because it didn’t! Each.. EACH and EVERYDAY I fight to keep breathing. Because to ME personally, depression isn’t something that is or can be cured. It’s a constant battle. And trust me, some days I win, others I lose and even some I’m close to defeat! But thanks to the people who are in my life, I find a light at the end of the tunnel. We NEED to look and REALLY observe others. Look for the signs! I suffered in silence for MANY years because I was sooo good at putting a great front. I smiled A LOT!

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[11.04] Another #5K to my record! πŸƒπŸ½β€β™€οΈ This one hits REALLY close to my heart. 😭 Sooo many are fighting this battle! ☹️ I walk for you ALL, I walk for US and I walk for ME & YOU! πŸ’™ Please don’t give up, keep moving forward! 😀 Life has so much to offer and there is sooo much to live for! πŸ’ͺ🏼 I am grateful for the unconditional support of these amazing women who I’m lucky and privileged to call mom and grandma! πŸ’ž It was sooo nice to hear Judy Chung talk at this event! 😊 And it was a pleasure to hear the testimony of Guadalupe Aguilar. πŸ’œ Lets be nice to one another, lift each other up and listen to one another as well! πŸ’˜ Will share my personal experience soon! πŸ“ Stay tuned! πŸ™ƒ #StopSuicide #Semicolon #LearningToBreath #WalkToFightSuicide #Strength #OutOfTheDarkness #OOTDLA #SemicolonProject #Fight #SuicidePrevention #WonderWoman #WonderWomanStrong #AmericanFoundationForSuicidePrevention

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[10.31] Shiri is THE BEEESSST!... 🀩 #Happy #Halloween everyone! 😍 Be safe out there everyone! πŸ‘» #HappyHalloween #WonderWoman #Unicorn #DressUp #Costume #ImAHero #SheIsMystical #LAVC

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[10.30] Had a blast at El Shaddai’s Festival of Nations! 🌎 I’m proudly #Salvadorian! πŸ‡ΈπŸ‡» It was great seeing how my parents and others sang El Salvador’s National song! 😊 They are proud Salvadorians who came to this country looking for something better. πŸ™‚ Once they became parents they made sure their children had everything they needed and more! 😭 We never forget our roots, but I’m so proud that in 2008 they became American citizens! πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ Each day we fight for a better life! 😀 Doesn’t my little sister Mels look #beautiful in her Salvadorian Traditional outfit? πŸ’πŸ» And ALL the little girls looked just #gorgeous! πŸ’™ #ElShaddai #FestivalOfNations #ElSalvador #CentraAmerican #ProudSalvi #Salvi #ES #Esmearez #Americans #SiSePuede #KeepMovingForward

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[10.29] Always #fun going to the #BreastCancer walk! πŸŽ€ Plus, this year it was awesome seeing and meeting Dean! 😊 I walk for the AMAZING #warrior women in my life who have or are fighting this battle against cancer! 😀 I walk for my #warriors Rina and Sacha! 😘 Lets continue making strides against breast cancer. πŸƒπŸ½β€β™€οΈ #CancerWalk #IWalkForThem #BreastCancerWalk #SantaMonica #CancerSucks #IllWalkAMillionMilesForYou

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[10.28] TOOOOO good to NOT post! 😁 Got to meet and chat a little with Dean! πŸ™ƒ I walk for Rina & Sacha! πŸŽ€ He walks for his mom! πŸ’ž He has such a GREAT #smile! 😊 He actually laughed at a comment I said. πŸ˜… I was like β€œMom PLEASE take a good picture!” 🀣 #BreastCancer #CancerSucks #CancerCanSuckIt #OneStepAtATime #SantaMonica

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[10.11] #Day10: #Hands. πŸ‘‹πŸ½ I’m SUUUPEEEER #selfconcious of my hands, but here is ONE of my hands! πŸ˜… No matter HOW much lotion I put, they are rough. 😰 I grew up hating my hands, but then I realized that’s just the #texture of my hands! πŸ™ƒ I also feel as if they look like they are alligator skin, but little by little learning to #accept my #brown hands! 🀣 (Fun fact: if you notice, my left hand doesn’t have the regular β€œM” that most hands have. Hehe. 😊) #AlligatorSkin #Insecurity #LoveThyself #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.09] #Day09: #Pink. πŸŽ€ I’ve NEVER been the type of gal that likes pink. 😣 I don’t really own anything pink. πŸ˜… Buuuut I do have this pink room decoration! πŸ™ƒ #IDontLikePink #PinkDecor #NeverReallyWasAPinkGal #ILoveBlue #ILoveBlack #Love #RoomDecor #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.09] #Day08: #Corner. πŸ™ƒ This is my #favorite corners in my #room! 😊 It’s my #WonderWoman corner! πŸ’™ I have many more things of her on the floor of that same corner and on the window, plus all the clothes hehe! 😁 You can say I’m a HUGE #fan! 😌 #WonderWomanCorner #RoomDecor #DC #Hero #WW #SheMyHero #WonderWomanStrong #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.08] #Day06: 8 o’clock. πŸ•— On Friday around 8 o’clock P.M. I was enjoying a nice cruise on a #Gondola around Long Beach. πŸ’™ It was such an UNFORGETTABLE night! 😊 #8OClock #LongBeach #GondolaGetaway #Love #AFeelOfItaly #APieceOfItaly #BabeTookMeToItaly #ItalyWasBroughtToCalifornia #VenetianTradition #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.08] #Day05: #Afternoon. πŸ™ƒ I’m sooo behind on this challenge! πŸ˜… I’ll try to catch up throughout the day! 😜 This was my afternoon #view on Thursday while I worked. 😊 I love this view, although it’s sooo simple I love this #tree! 🌸 #AfternoonView #Trees #Nature #Glendale #WorkGrind #Scenery #Esmearezography #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.04] #Day04: In #motion. πŸŒ„ I love taking some time to watch the evening #sunsets, especially when I’m in motion because I’m taking an afternoon run. πŸ’™ Don’t forget to just take a moment to appreciate your surroundings. 😊 #InMotion #AfternoonRun #Evening #SunValley #RunnersView #EveningSunsets #Sunography #Esmearezography #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.03] #Day03: #You #today! πŸ™†πŸ» β€œI #believe that imagination is #stronger than knowledge. That myth is more potent than history. That #dreams are more #powerful than facts. That #hope always triumphs over experience. That #laughter is the only cure for #grief. And I believe that #love is stronger than death.”
-#RobertFulghum
#Esmearez #LearningToBreath #LoveThyself #DareToDream #YouToday #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.02] #Day01: Something #colorful. 🌈 First day and I’m ALREADY falling behind! πŸ˜… Buuuut then again, when am I not? 🀣 I had such a blast last night at MG’s Dinner! πŸ’ƒπŸ» What my Gal friends make me do for photos! πŸ¦„ #SomethingColorful #ImAUnicorn #UnicornThrewUpOnMe #UnicornColors #OhWait #ImABunny #BunnyEars #Rabbit #OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[10.01] October is heeeeere! πŸ‚ May this month bring many adventures, cold weather and great memories! 😊 I’m sooo ready for Fall! 🍁#OctoberPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #OctoberChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #October #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[09.20] My heart hurts and breaks to see how horribly the world is being damaged and how many people are suffering.... Stay safe.. #PrayForTheWorld.. πŸ˜”πŸ’”

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[09.10] Another one for the books! πŸ…This is 1/3, sooo two more to go! 😊 It was a SUPER #great #run for me! πŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ’¨ A little tough and rough for me, but I had a blast! πŸ˜… I just LOVE that I was able to run side by side with my mom to the finish line! πŸ™‚ I appreciate her unconditional support! πŸ’™ #SantaMonicaClassic #SantaMonica #2017Finisher #Finisher #Runner #Running #ILoveRunning #Runaholic #RunAddict #Athlete #Esmearez #AnotherMedalForMyWall

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[08.31] #Day31: End of August #Collage. πŸ“· Weeeell it's been fun doing the August photo challenge! πŸ™ƒ Just a few things that August brought. πŸ€— I went to eat at Ocha with Nolvia and Deli, it was THE BEST! πŸ’™ Celebrated 10 months with my babe and he gave me a promise ring! πŸ’ My tia Chopana took me to Panera Bread for my first time EVER, which was sooo tasty! 😍 We got a new doggie! 🐢 Her name is Cleopatra! πŸ’ž WAS suppose to be my mom's pup BUT she follows my Abu EVERYWHERE, hehe. πŸ˜… EveEve and I took la Meli to Mr. Ramen and it was sooo bomb! 🍜 I saw my colocha Ingrid! 😁 I miss our late night catch ups in each other's dorm room at LaSU. 😭 Faced my fear of touching/holding a snake! 😱 Ate pupusas from a pizza box, haha. 🀣 I played a prank that I had "cut" my hair! πŸ’‡πŸ» El Shaddai Pathfinders won Champions of Camporee. πŸ† I got to see the Lunar Eclipse(well semi, not completely due to being at Cali, lol). 😰 I have initiated Fall session at Los Angeles Valley College! πŸŽ’ My sexy stud Gronk comes out in Katy Perry's new music video! πŸ˜‚ Aaaaand last BUT NOT least, my amazing boyfriend gave me the gift of a gym membership! πŸ’ͺ🏼 Which I'm TOTALLY taking advantage of and working/sweating my fat off! 😀 #EndOfAugustCollage #ItsDone #ImDone #AugustHasEnded #EndOfAugust #ByeAugust #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.30] #Day29: #Zodiac #sign. 😊 Born on #April #16th, making me an #Aries. β™ˆοΈ I CAN be stubborn like a #ram, but I do have a kind loving heart which sometimes is toooo good for its own good! πŸ˜’ But I #love who I am! πŸ’™ #ZodiacSign #Horoscope #AriesSign #AprilBaby #LoveYourself #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.28] #Day28: #Necklace. πŸ’Ž This is one of my #favorites! 😊 My brother gave me this! πŸ’πŸ» I love my #crystal necklace. πŸ’“ My #awesome brother gave me this #flower #pendant a while back. 😍 It's pretty big and heavy so I keep it #hanged around my car's mirror. 🌸 #FlowerPendant #Jewelry #PinkCrystal #PinkRose #PinkRoseCrystal #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.28] #Day26: #Sport(s). πŸ™ƒ Weeeell, as you can see by my little album, I #LOVE #sports! πŸ’™ The FIRST sport I fell in love with was #soccer! ⚽️ I spent it chasing the ball around with my dad, as well as watching him play with such admiration at his skill. 😊 Then #swimming came into my life and I just couldn't get out of he water! πŸŠπŸ½β€β™€οΈ For obvious reasons, (Being #Salvadorian), I go for #ElSalvador's national soccer team. πŸ‡ΈπŸ‡» I'm a #Barca fan! πŸ‡ͺπŸ‡Έ I have about 3 years already that I picked up on watching #IceHockey! πŸ’ I go for the #Pittsburgh #Penguins. 🐧 I grew up watching "The Mighty #Ducks" sooo I go for the #Anaheim Ducks as well. πŸ¦† I'm a HUGE #Patriots fan! 🏈 Win or lose, I'll be standing tall with my Patriots gear! πŸ˜… I picked up playing #tennis again thanks to @house.iii.vi.xvi and also for taking Tennis I with @priyanka.kelly! 🎾 My Bro Keko is who got me into #volleyball, which I SO enjoy playing! 🏐 Aaaaand LAST but NOT least, I LOVE and have such a #passion for #running! πŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈ It saved my life back in 2013 and so I LITERALLY run for my life! πŸ’“ Whatever sport it is, you teach me, I'll play! 😁 I just enjoy staying active! πŸ‹πŸ»β€β™€οΈ #ILoveSports #SportsGal #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.24] #Day24: #10 #facts about you! πŸ€” Weeeell these are ten facts about myself. 😝 I'm quite #weird when it comes to the odd number thing. πŸ˜… I'll like specifically just grab even number of things. #️⃣ For example: there is a buffet in front of me or I order stuff, I'll grab 2,4,6,8.. etc! 🀣 I'll sometimes count my chews, my steps.. Yeeeah πŸ™ƒ Like I said I'm #unique! πŸ˜‹ When they took me out of my mom through C-section is because my heart stopped sooo I technically died and was revived. 😳 I SERIO hate going to the mall and shop. πŸ˜’ If I need something I just go for that specific thing and leave. 😢 Rarely I go to windowshop. 😌 I DO #love to sing, buuuut get nervous to do it in front of an audience! 🎀 Aaaand well different people, call me different #nicknames! πŸ˜‚ #10FactsAboutYou #10FactsAboutMe #AboutMe #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.23] #Day23: #Addiction. πŸ˜₯ I'm waaaaay TOOOOO #addicted to my #phone. 😰 But it has everything in it, at the tip of my fingers. πŸ‘‰πŸ½ However, my other #addictions are #running and #reading! πŸ€— I can't seem to stop signing up for #runs. πŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈ Aaaaand when I start a book I NEED to finish it and can't put them down even after saying a million times "After the next chapter." 🀣 #MyAddictions #PhoneAddict #Phonaholic #RunAddict #Runaholic #ReadAddict #Readaholic #BookAddict #Bookaholic #Runner #Reader #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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[08.22] #Day22: Someone who #inspires you! πŸ€” I have SO MANY people I look up to and have & continue to learn from. 😊 BUT, my ULTIMATE #inspiration comes from my #mother! πŸ’ž She carried me for 9 months. 🀰🏻She continues to #love me, care for me, teach me, guide me, advice me and much much more all these 25 years of life I've had so far. πŸ’™ This #WONDERFUL #AMAZING #woman has done it all for my brother and I to have the necessary! 😭 When I grow up, I want to be at least HALF of this #beautiful #WonderWoman! πŸ‘ΈπŸ» She truly is a #queen! πŸ‘‘ I have looked up to her since I took my first breath and continue to #admire her! 😍 I love you #mommy! 😘 #SomeoneWhoInspiresYou #Mom #MyWonderWoman #SheIsEverything #AugustPhotoChallenge #PhotoChallenge #AugustChallenge #MonthPhotoChallenge #August #Photo #Challenge #APhotoADay

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