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I need to get my shit together. I feel sad all the time. I blame myself for every small thing I do right or do wrong. I can't sleep. I can't get up from bed. I can't even concentrate on watching shows. I literally lost all the fucks to give. I call out on people's bullshit even before they start. I feel that I lost most constants in my life. The only constant now is that nagging pain from cheer. I want to do a lot of things but right before I do it Steve will ask me 'Why bother? It'll just goes back to nothing. Nothing matters.'. I hate Steve. But after reasoning with him for a bit, it makes me feel better. I'm in a dark place and I'm not okay. I'm trying to find out why am I not Okay. Is it something in my life? Everything in my life? Am I a psychopath, sociopath or even a narcissist? The crippling feeling of going nowhere in life? I don't know. I don't need anyone to solve my problems. I just need people to care.
Get me out of here. I’m not sure whether I need a getaway or an immigration. #jasperpls
Nothing could be focused on. Nothing got done. Nothing could be done. A lot of ‘what ifs’. Lots of masks. Lots of lies and games. Wanna say ‘get me out of here’ but where can you get me to lessen this blow?
Thanks friends, you made my hell week a lot better.
I still don't think this job is for me just because the way I'm wired. I can't just make friends and just let it go like that. On the plus side, I've gain crazy amount of friends in Japan. So... I won't die if I ever get stucked in Japan? Haha.
Send me back to US of the A! Haven't got enough of the city!
The Jap kids job have taken a toll on me. I'm not a very emotionally invested person in my everyday life. To bring the kids around, I need to emotionally invested to care for and bring them around. But after we have built a relationship and the day have ended, we will probably never meet each other again due to communication barrier. It is a fun and awesome job to begin with, I'm probably gonna do it till I'm broken down emotionally. With all said, I really enjoyed myself :)
楽しい一日ありがとう! @cycad_s @hinata_219 @mmmittt @watasumi_410 @noemie_yk
At the end of the day, everything is based on choice. Choice to let go of your fears, choice to take a leap of faith, choice to let someone get close. You'll constantly need to go round and round making these choices but nonetheless, only you can disregard everything and make those choices yourself.
More Jap kids job coming in! Cant wait for those challenges!
Awesome adventure last week around town. It's time for some rest and then work on the unfinished edits from New York!
Do not expect anything from anyone in life. Give your everything and if anything reciprocates, it's a bonus! Take it easy and lose control, thats how you discover something amazing 100% of the time!