Amanda G (@shmandapants)

Amanda G

πŸ™‹πŸ˜πŸ™‡πŸ’‹πŸ‘£πŸ’€...wait what? ED + Anxiety

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When you go to a movie and you're also really rude πŸ€“ #feetup #beautyandthebeast #datenight #rude

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πŸ’•When your honey comes to your show πŸ’•
#muchadoaboutnothing #pigeoncreekshakespeare #actor #corset #mylove

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One of the best meals I've had in a minute. Amazing post show dinner with my two favorite people. β€πŸ–πŸ πŸ°πŸΉβ€
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#eeeeeats #chocolatecake #raspberrysauce #brisket #frites #shortribs #gnocchi #rootvegetables #yummy #worthit @thewheelhousegr

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When it's 2am and you still can't sleep, you selfie.
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#insomnia #selfie #brunette #sleepy #tootiredtohashtag 😴😴😴

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After spending a really nice day with George's family and getting to hang out with his awesome siblings (and baby friend!), my mom gave us this lovely #easterbasket filled with #chocolate and love. I'm thankful.

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Best snuggles with G's niece Julianne. Happy Easter! πŸ’πŸ°πŸ’ #thinkingface #girltime @dianeelizabeth0

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#cats like to lay on backs. Just fyi. πŸ˜…πŸ™ƒπŸ˜½

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#wildflowers boyfriend picked for me from our backyard. They are upsetting my allergies a bit but I won't tell him because they are also #beautiful and very sweet. πŸ’

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Girls playing boys (it is so effing hot in here plz excuse my sweaty huge pores) β™¨οΈπŸŽ­πŸ–€
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#muchadoaboutnothing #actorslife #acting #crossdresser #shakespeare #conrade #ialsoplaymargaret #pigeoncreekshakespeare #pigeoncreekshakespearecompany @pcshakespeare

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FYI @loraccosmetics finally made THE definitive compact for White Girls: the #brunch pallet, with color names that include #glutenfree and #avocadotoast. I like #makeup and #breakfast but this time they went too far. This is embarrassing. πŸ₯‘πŸžπŸ‘β”β“β”β“β”β“

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LMAO. #tbt to when I was fed up with #okcupid and having #babyface and was just not putting up with dumbass shit any longer. I really am incredibly mean sometimes... 😢

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#regram from @karenjfp because YES πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ‘πŸ»#bodypositive #loveyourbody #loveyourself #everybodyisbeatiful #yourealreadyperfect

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Visiting George's land to show some prospective buyers around, and we found the cutest #roosters πŸ”πŸ₯😍 #nature #bewareofdog #puremichigan

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Borrowed from @ellenking1112 because it's completely true and also v difficult to do. ❀
#recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #selflove #loveyourbody #loveyourself

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Also please help this is weird and my @starbucks addiction has reached a weird level. It's not even about the coffee anymore... it's just about the stars... 😍🌟⭐️🌟⭐️😍πŸ˜₯☠️

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What at first was a seemingly hilarious and innocuous note from a roommate and good friend is now the horrific foreshadowing of what would become my first real breakdown, one of the most emotionally tumultuous times in my life, and the beginning of the end to my time as a resident of New York City. I wish I could go back in time and warn myself about all the ridiculous and barely believable shit that was about to happen after she left me that note. I wish.

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I looked kind of shitty but I do miss that cute shorty bob cut.

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Borrowed from @nerdsandneedles who regrammed from @rubyetc_ (great work btw) bc damn if that aint the way people act all the time. #actorlife #artistlife #payyouractors #artisworthmoney #weneedtopaybillstoo

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Throw back to the cutest #cupcake I've ever had from @thesaltedcupcake 😍πŸ₯žπŸ° #pancakes #cupcakes #syrup #dessert #eeeeeats

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When the power's out so you have to spend the night at your mother's house and a certain ssssomeone is very happy about it... 😻😻😻 #kittygram #catsofinstagram #snuggles #fiona #blanketfort #happygirl

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This isn't a very pretty photo but it doesn't really need to be.
Last night I had a very serious and much needed wake up call. My boyfriend was talking about leaving me. My life had been falling apart more and more severely for months. My eating disorder has been running my thoughts and me. I couldn't remember who I was. I wanted to die.
And then, somehow, I woke up. The me who is not my eating disorder finally took back over. I looked very hard at the choices I had been making, the lies I had been unintentionally telling myself and everyone else. For so long I told myself I could have my eating disorder AND my life. But I can't; no one can. It's all or nothing, it's my eating disorder OR my life - one can never have both. And I realized all I would be giving up if I chose bulimia over my boyfriend, my acting, my future.
So I chose life. And this morning I made and ate breakfast for the first time in a very, very long time. I'm not quite following the exchanges I received in treatment (tbh I lost all my pages of info including my exchanges and snack and meal suggestions from ERC some time last year) but today this is enough. It's a start. Living half inside my eating disorder didn't work; living completely in it sure didn't work either. I never really tried to apply the things I learned in treatment to my life in the real world. It's time for a change now. It's time to really try.
It's time to choose me.
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#eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #bulimia #anorexia #bulimiarecovery #edfam #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #recoverywin #breakfast #eattolive #loveyourself #bodypositive

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How I feel inside almost 100% of the time 😱
#greysanatomy #anxiety #insideimscreaming @greysabc

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