Not Pro Ana! Not Giving Tips!

I HAVE A BF DON'T ASK FOR NUDES/MORE BODY CHECKS 5'4"🚺17 HW:115lbs SW:105 CW:100 LW:94lbs GW:95lbs UGW:90lbs EDNOS/BDD self diagnosed

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Body checks 12/11/17 about 1pm
All i’ve had to eat today is a cup of coffee with stevia and 1 1/2 tablespoons of cream.
Part of my ED issues is freaking out when my neurotypical friends eat less than i do or skip meals altogether (mostly bc i feel guilty for eating more than them but also bc i don’t want them to get like me)
Anyway, my boyfriend is really broke and i have $1 to my name until 12/19, normally, i am able to send him up to $10 a day for snacks before and after his school day. But because i get paid so little at work, i won’t be able to do that till 12/19 and because he wont be eating as much, i will be forcing myself to eat less and hopefully i’ll lose some weight before christmas. I’m really worried about him though.

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Here’s a few more. I must seem really vanilla to you guys

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My answers to what you all commented.

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I’ll give it a go (answering all in the morning)

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*not me*
I want to fucking die. Everything has been so bad lately.

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Another sitting check where i’m not slouching so much

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Body check?? My legs look like each of them have transformed into entire whales every time i sit down

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The reason i hardly post body checks is because when i first started this account, i planned on posting them all the time but i quickly learned that creeps lurk around pages like this and after being harrassed by a guy three or four times i took all my body checks down and blocked him, changing my rules and my outlook upon posting pictures of my disgusting body for everyone to look at.

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*not me*
I want to be bones. I want people to look at me and instantly think i’m withering away

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12/07 body checks part 2

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12/07 body checks part 1

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I think i might start taking lax again after my period is over

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Does anyone want to send me the meanspo i need to get back on track with fasting so i can be pretty over christmas??

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Last night my boyfriend basically told me it annoys him when i talk about our future so i guess i won’t be doing that anymore.

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*not me*
What’s it like to be able to look at your body and not hate what you see? What’s it like to look at yourself and feel like you’ve made progress?

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*not me*
I do not like the person i have become lately.

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What is going on with me is serious, diagnosed or not.

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*not me* trying to eat less solids and just have more liquids lately to ease myself into starving again

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This is what keeps me going

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Someone give me a reason not to slice my fingers open right now

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*not me*
I’m going to attempt to do my first fast in a very long time. I need to get back on track with losing this weight or i’ll never achieve my ugw.

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I honestly never look at the resources they offer because i know the person who reported me doesn’t actually care about me so you guys can stop fucking pretending. Thanks.

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*not me*
Why does nothing ever go the way i’d hoped?

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*not me*
I feel like my lungs are being crushed and i can’t get a full breath in.

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Part 1. This can be useful for other holidays too!

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Bloated hand check. I’ve been binging a lot bc i’m pmsing.

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I have one of these things! The link is in my bio and if i get any comments, i’ll post answers to them on my story.

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I’m supposed to be dead. Why aren’t i dead?

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*not me*
And suddenly, nothing i was struggling with seemed like a problem. I could over come it as long as he stuck around. But the fact that i could lose him to himself, became a very real possibility and i’m scared beyond my own comprehension.

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