Ephesians 4:2,3. Sophie Rose YouTube down below 🌹
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Thank you to all of the beautiful kids and staff at Starship for having us come and perform for you today! Thank you to the man on keys and for all of you for making us love what we do even more than we thought possible, hoped you loved the Xmas special (Full video is up on my YouTube if any of you are interested!)
7 habits of people with anxiety #1 They take everything personally #2 They apologise for anything and everything #3 They worry about every little thing #4 They sleep a lot because meeting with other people is draining #5 Awkward laughing #6 Being indecisive #7 They play with their hair. For encouraging yourself with motivation head to heal your mind. For others, please be patient with us, we are trying, we cannot help these things, we just want you to understand. We need a little more reassurance than others, but we try our best to move on, sometimes we don’t get closure, but we get up and carry on.
So, a year ago today. I wouldn't of in a million years seen myself in the biggest city in New Zealand, one of the youngest in my class, and studying a contemporary music performance certificate. A year ago today, I went through with one of the most selfish actions I could've taken. I made the conscious decision to attempt to take my own life. To me I felt as though it was selfish, because there were people that loved me through absolutely everything, and I would've hurt them beyond imaginable if I didn't pick up that phone and ring my mum. On this day last year I put a face on of untrue happiness. I planned it on the Friday night as I was doing my part time shift at work. I packed my Nike back pack, the same one I took to school and packed it with a full prescription of nurofen and a full 1 litre water bottle, my wallet, my headphones and my phone. I took my god awful yellow scooter in the pouring rain and drove it to back beach, I parked in a car park a little walk away from where I was planning to go hoping that no one would see it. I wrote a note after turning the ignition off and placed it inside the seat pocket, I can't remember what it said. I walked for a little while, through the bushes and down by paritutu. I didn't want to play my music just yet, I continued walking and tried to make sure I wasn't seen. I went a little further than the car park and found the bench I'd always used to sit at, my best friend showed me that little seat. Teia that's you. I didn't want to sit on the bench afraid that I would be seen and questioned as it was pouring down with rain on a Sunday evening. I hid in the bush just behind the bench, drenched already and holding my back pack for comfort. I sat there and cried. Turned on my music and cried even more not knowing if it was rain or tears on my face. But both. I sat there for about three hours talking myself in and out of it, I turned my music off and steadily started opening my bag with freezing hands that barely moved, I took one tablet at a time making sure it went down. I took 40 pills that night. I remember feeling dizzy about a half hour later looking up to the stars. I changed my mind, filled with absolute regret...