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One can never be too old for stuffed animals I don’t care that I was one of the oldest people in Children’s yesterday, I was tortured with an impromptu EKG and some blood testing. Took all day, but I didn’t let the anxiety win I am very nervous for the results however...my weight has dropped (a big deal for me) and the psych ward is worried. Harassing me at meals for not “eating enough” when the reality is just that I am too full too quickly. Have no idea what’s causing it but it’s miserable when you know you need calories Anyways, the hospital gift shop was *conveniently* located right next to the labs center! I marched myself right into that toy store and bought a nice stuffed animal to add to my collection I feel like I earned it, though! And besides, there’s nothing wrong with it after the week I’ve had!
#spoonie #anxiety #childrenshospital #labwork #EKG #heartmonitor #possiblePOTSie #ocd #hospitallife
I got my first shipment of Kate Farms today
Their #hypoallergenic #glutenfree #cornfree #soyfree #plantbased #vegan enteral feeding and oral formulas. Perfect for those who are looking for nutrition without being able to eat solid foods. The company is #amazing and wonderful! They truly care about their customers and answered all of my questions. I am really excited to see how my #irritablebowelsyndrome benefits from these! We are hoping to get me to around three per day (orally, as I still have stomach function) as well as snacks to ensure adequate nutrition and minimal pain! I have more diagnostic testing on the rise and until we figure it out, it’s important for me to have #nutritionallycomplete foods! Share your @katefarms success stories down below! -
#chronicillness #chronicallyill #fighter #ibs #irritablebowelsyndrome #katefarms #feedingtubeformula #nutrition #eatingdisorder #anxiety #ocd #mentalhealth #chronicpain
Okay, I have been talking to my psychologist, and she, along with my parents, told me that I have to go to a mental hospital. I begged them not to do inpatient, and have succeeded. We have selected a program held at Children’s Hospital that should take about three weeks, but could be longer. I go home at night, but during the day I do intensive therapy treatments (art, music, family, pet, psycho) and also work on schoolwork. It’s often recommended for those with chronic illness(es) that have caused debilitating anxiety. I don’t know what it’ll be like, or how exactly it works, only that I am nervous. It scares me to have to face the reality that I have gotten this bad. Any thoughts, prayers, or messages are wonderful and appreciated. I will be in this for weeks, maybe months. I won’t be able to see my friends much, and won’t have much social interaction outside of my peers in the program. I have been struggling for a long time and all I can do is hope that his helps me lift some of the weight off of my shoulders. Anxiety isn’t curable, only somewhat treatable to achieve the closest thing to normalcy. It’s like many of the illnesses that plague us as a community (POTS, EDS, GP, MS). You can only hope to bring it down to a somewhat manageable level with tools. Sometimes it’s possible, other times not. But I love the support that I have gotten already from those out there in the community. Hospital, here I come!
This is really important. Mental health issues are very common. If someone you know, a friend, or a partner has mental health issues/disorders, but especially when they are disabling, always ask if they are okay with being touched. Sometimes people want nothing more than to draw you into a hug or put their arm around your shoulder when you experience an attack. But, you never know how they will react unless you ask. "Is it okay if I give you a hug" will suffice. It means a lot when people ask. Attacks can be triggered because of a number of things. Sensory issues from autism can also trigger meltdowns. In conditions such as OCD, PTSD, social anxiety, and SPD, people are often very sensitive to touch, especially without warning. Hugging a loved one when they are in an attack can make it worse to the point in which they may faint or hyperventilate. A PTSD nightmare will not be soothed by patting the person on the back, as it may trigger more flashbacks for them. Sensory processing disorder may mean that the person is exposed to so much sensory overload already that touching them could literally make them vomit all over you. That's no fun for either party. Socially anxious people may be afraid of human contact from people they aren't familiar with and it could make their anxiety a lot worse. So, please make sure it's ok before touching someone, pulling them into a hug, patting their hand, wiping the tears from their eyes, or putting your arm around them. Even if done with the best of intentions, it can mean horrible damage for the warrior. This also goes for normal situations. You could be the trigger for someone, so always ensure that you are respecting their issues and making sure you are supporting in a way that will benefit them. Thanks for listening.
Saw @dead_inside_yet_still_dying doing this and thought I'd join in. #myfavoritethingaboutsusan is how she never pretends to be who she's not. She is unapologetically funny, stylish, and she loves to dress up her dogs. There is nothing wrong with that and she takes no fudge from other people when it comes to her SDiTs. She cares about her clients and puts their safety above hers every time. From everything that I have seen about her, she's a great trainer, a friend to all, and will call you out if you make fun of what she does or who she is.
Pass on this message for those who know the wonderful program @trainedandmaintained or @whogivesasdit :)
I think I've neglected posting this for too long. I might as well be open and honest with y'all. Oliver is no longer my Service Dog in Training. I have been struggling with the idea of taking him back to the shelter, versus perseverance and trying new tactics. When perseverance didn't work and new tactics didn't change anything, I made the touch choice to wash out my Ollie Boy. He is in a no-kill shelter, one that I know personally and have experience with, and they will take good care of him, even if he never gets adopted. His separation anxiety was so bad that I couldn't ask him to spend 8 hours a day, 5 days a week in a kennel away from me. He also had so much energy, and he was never taught how to control that when he was little. He doesn't understand that biting (without drawing blood), barking, and jumping on people isn't okay. And despite training to attempt to counteract these behaviors, it only got worse. I love him, and always will. I will continue to visit him often and see how he is doing. As for a prospect, I am looking into a breeder. No guarantees that I will even try again after the agony of failure and the heartbreak it brings. A Golden Retriever breeder in my area has a litter being born, and we will see if any of them are suitable to be a prospect. Fingers crossed.
Attention all owners of an #emotionalsupportanimal that have ever thought "why don't we get the same rights?" Well, quite a few of you take the time to comment on social media and express how you feel. Today, I am going to let you know why. First, however, I want it understood that ESAs are ONLY for those who have Psychiatric disabilities or other disabilities that cause severe psychological distress. These are diagnosed disorders that have been lasting for more than six months and can legally be recognized as a disability. ESAs are a form of treatment prescribed to such people who are seeking relief in pet therapy. Now, because of this, ESA owners do have disabilities that qualify them for a #servicedog. Why they chose not to have one is their business, but they are just like us. ESAs cannot go places for multiple reasons, although I definitely understand that a lot of people rely on them for daily comfort and they allow them to be more independent. However, even if you cannot leave the house without your four-legged friend, doesn't justify taking it on a trip to the supermarket. One reason : health codes. The government tries to limit the number of animals anywhere that serves food as a caution, and a curtesy to those suffering from fear or severe allergies to animals. This means that only dogs (and sometimes miniature horses) are allowed in any facility that serves food. These dogs or horses have to be service animals required because of a disability, which rules out those wanting to take their pooch to lunch with them. Second reason : looking out for ESAs. Yes, this law actually tries to look out for your #emotionalsupportdog. You may not realize it, but most dogs don't enjoy going everywhere with you. There is so much external stimuli that it causes stress and fear in most dogs. Service dogs, unlike ESAs, are trained for many years to handle these environments, and they still make mistakes sometimes. As a help to those with ESAs, no training is required, meaning this dog, out of fear, could act inappropriately and harm legitimate service dog teams and random bystanders. Thirdly : the law. Being homeless doesn't justify taking things without paying.
*It's Annie, Oliver's handler*
Wondering what to do. I guess I should have been prepared for this, but I wasn't. The vet wasn't as planned. Turns out he has some inflammation under his tail, chafing from the gentle leader turning into crusty bumps and causing pain/discomfort, as well as a yeast infection. Got lots of meds, and he isn't going to be able to work again for at least 3 weeks. I hate this so much. Wondering if I should wash him and start again, since I he will fall out of what he knows stuck inside and my excursions outside the house will be slim to none. Help?
I have just been given a few days of paid leave from my tireless job (sd work keeps me busy!) to focus on my health. I am going to the vet asap to check on this rash at the base of my tail, and where my gentle leader is, because I have been itching like mad and refuse to wear my gentle leader. Haven't been working much within the last few days. I'll keep you posted on the vet results. Hopefully this won't be too big a set-back for our team. We should be able to return to the 'great outdoors' within a few days with some ointment or something.
Anxiously awaiting our vest and patches by @patienceandlove143! We love their products, but waiting is definitely the hardest part!
Mental illness update : Annie is going to go in for a full set of tests, including an IQ test, to ensure that she wasn't misdiagnosed. She was first diagnosed about 3-4 years ago, and she wants to see what, if anything, has changed. Her regular psychologist is on maternity leave, and so she is going to go to another one before school starts to see if there is anything new they can offer her. Hopefully I can sit still for the 3+ hours that the testing will be! Annie will be nervous enough without me getting jumpy and excitable.
Why do some people talk to you like you aren't there, or cannot understand?? It's frustrating. On the road, we stopped at a bakery to get some lunch. While we were there, I did a perfect "exit" command. Upon returning, Annie was asked by a girl if she was a police officer. "Yeah totally. Hey can get past all those silly labor laws and such." She was five, though, so she just laughed and said no. Then, a mother started educating her kids on service dogs when we walked past. She was happy, and turned around to say a quick thanks to the mom. Then, the kids asked her "Why is it working?" Her best response : "She's diseased,". Like.....ummm.......ok? Annie doesn't have the plague, lady. #servicedog #crazyservicedogstory #ServicedogPA
Having a great day...Just great....Annie woke up at 3am feeling nauseated like you wouldn't believe. Took an hour and a half of combined DPT, anti-nausea acupressure bracelets, aromatherapy, relaxing music (Weightless by Marconi Union is so great!!!), and effort to get her to fall back into a jagged sleep pattern. She is seriously sleep-deprived. Next, we woke up and got ready for our trip, supposedly getting on the road at around 9:30am, which didn't happen. They got checked into the hotel, and then went to see Annie's relative. This relative proceeded to pet me, even though Annie asked them not to. This resulted in a minor OCD attack, and me having to get dog shampoo and have a bath. After an argument before dinner set the mood loudly and clearly, the relative and Annie's family proceeded to a fancy restaurant. Annie had another OCD attack, but was able to be calmed down and was consolable by the time we left the restaurant. After that, we went outside (for the 8th time that day, since I was uncomfortable going to the bathroom in such an unfamiliar environment), I walked around and finally went to the bathroom. Only, it was a huge thing of diarrhea. And then I did it again. It was so bad that Annie couldn't bring herself to clean it up, and had to use aromatherapy and anti-nausea bracelets to calm down. Finally diarrhea-free, we went back inside to our room and laid down. Annie then found out that I had peed in the bathroom (shhhhhh......we cleaned it up. Don't tell the managers!). So yes, I have had a bad day. Training wise--not great. I guess it's just one of those things. People around us probably assumed we were fakes, but all Service animals have bad days sometimes. Just because you have some elimination issues and attacks attacking you, doesn't mean that you are less legitimate than you were yesterday.
Just hanging around. Annie took me to her aunt's pool to go swimming. We learned two things. 1) I will not, for the life of me, get in the pool. 2) Annie's OCD was bad today, and the pool set it over the edge. Annie was disappointed that we couldn't stay and hang out with family, but she was having an attack and the only thing that would help was a shower for her, and a bath for me. She was told by her family members to "take Ollie's gear off" and "let him be a dog". She then did so hesitantly, and let me run with the other dogs. It wasn't a great experience, since I wasn't able to focus on her. She then wouldn't let me do DPT because I had been rolling around with the other dogs. It's a process, honestly, but we will get there. For now, no pools and unattended dogs (seriously, I am a Service Dog, keep your mutt away from me! It's distracting!)
Well dinner was....interesting, I guess. We went to a sushi place with my grandmother and family. Upon entering, I was greeted with the familiar look of those uneducated in the ADA laws. He just stared, dumbfounded, as we walked in. He then spoke up and said "I don't think dogs are allowed in here..." and everyone *thankfully* corrected him, including his coworker and boss. We were seated, and I was going to use the restroom before the meal started. My grandmother then proceeded to tell me "leave him here." This time it was my turn to stare, dumbfounded by the notion that I would leave my Service Dog at the table just to use the restroom. I was a little shaky at this point, and all I could muster was "I don't understand,". She spoke the words again, and then told me "I don't want people to be scared if you walk around with a dog in the restaurant. No one wants to see a dog while they are eating,". Ummmm....I had no idea what to say, so I got up, got him up, and went anyway without a word. Sometimes people can be weird.
Modeling is such a fun concept! We would love to be your model because we are always looking for high-quality gear for our daily outings! All service dogs are handsome and sweet, of course, so we wouldn't say we were better than all of the other amazing entries. But Oliver's look is definitely pretty unique and your products would match perfectly (black goes with everything, right!)!
We are tired after a very productive day! Annie is so happy, she finally did something she hasn't been able to do in a long time : cook a complex meal and eat it. For months, she has been limited to pasta and toast when cooking at home. Finally, today, she found the strength within her to actually eat the fried rice she prepared for the family. She has tried several times to do this, but this is the first time she was successful! It's definitely something to celebrate over here. To anyone who doesn't suffer from mental illness, this may seem frivolous. But it is such a big victory for us, believe me. Afterwards, we did a few minutes of DPT and aromatherapy to help her stop trembling. She was also battling some severe nausea from eating the food. But, it is normal for her to feel this way when trying something so new that has held her back for so long. Every time, we work at it, and get better. Soon, we will be well on our way to a healthy, happy life, even with mental illness.
#lifewithanxiety #ocdawareness #gadawareness #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyservicedog #servicedog #deeppressuretherapy
What the heck. Do people think that the S in ESA actually refers to service animal? And furthermore, I am trying desperately to understand their thinking process. The same is true for the #registeredservicedog people who think that it's legal and ok. Well, do they really think that it would be that easy? Do they actually think that they can put up a few bucks (more than a few) and automatically get a house pet to be a service dog without both proof of disability (required, since service dogs are prescribed medical equipment) and proof of any training whatsoever? Ummmm......what???
Annie isn't really sure what to do.....When she is in an attack, I alert (finally, yay!), but I haven't been responding. I kind of keep my distance, and don't listen when she calls me to her. DPT hasn't been happening. Practice is coming along nicely, but I am not doing it when she needs it. I also haven't been good at doing tricks or basic obedience in stores (sit, stay, down, wait, puppy push-ups, etc.) and instead refuse her treats no matter how well it was practiced at home. Annie is scared that I will have to be washed out, since things are not looking good with my skills when necessary. It only makes her attacks worse if I keep a distance, because she gets frustrated from the anxiety and doesn't know what to do. Help?
When you make a "cake" for your dog because it is the one-month anniversary of the first time we met. Some people say that it is silly to celebrate something like this, but whatever. I am so thankful to have rescued this dog, and that God brought me to him. He has really been a shoulder throughout this summer, and I hope that he continues to be he amazing dog he is and that we will be a team for many happy years! By the way, crafting a cake out of dog-friendly ingredients is tough! I know it may look pathetic (an understatement ), but he enjoyed it, and that's what matters!
#servicedog #servicedogatwork #servicedogintraining #dog #dogfriendlycake #lovemydog #anxiety #anxietydisorder #ocdawareness #anxietyservicedog
Annie's not too sure about this one. Thoughts? Inspo creds : @lizlapointeart
Annie's having a bad anxiety day so we are just hanging around. Headache, nausea, and the like. All wrapped up in a nice little package of "staying home and watching Netflix and eating potato chips". But it can be fun if you want it to be.