Lots of bad jokes and un-inspirational quotes. 🎓 UCLA Survivor ✈️ #tiffyinthesky 📸#tiffaniemariephotography 🍕#tiffattydiaries 👻: @tiffaniemeows
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This has been, without a doubt, the most difficult journey I have ever been on in my life. I’m still here in the ICU, 3 surgeries later, tubes in both nostrils, 4 tube drains in my stomach, 6 screws in my spine and all, but my mind and heart strive with all of it’s might to find peace with my situation. Day by day, I have been trying motivating myself through yet another victory, no matter how small.
It’s been rough, and there were days and nights where I writhed in pain that not even the strongest doses of painkiller can subside, and days and nights where all i wanted was to stay in a drugged up sleep. I’ve even gotten to the point of wishing I hadn’t made it so I wouldn’t have to deal with this.
But then I see my momma come in to the hospital every morning, ready to push me to heal, my father every evening, harassing every doctor and nurse about my progress, my dear friends who stop by, bringing me encouragement and love, and lastly, I read all these messages from you all, believing in me, and I know I have to push.
So here I am, slowly healing, taking joy in the little things like learning how to walk again (or pooping for the first time) so that one day, I might twerk for y’all again.
I believe there is a lot of strength in combined thoughts and I know for a fact that I never would have been able to make it this far this positively (I haven’t had been allowed to eat food in over a week and I can’t stop thinking about boba and ice cream and dim sum and it’s driving me crazy) without all of you guys backing me up. I love you all so much, I can’t wait to be back and better than ever. (Ps thank goodness @tiff__ly did my eyebrows before this cuz they look on FLEEK)
There are only a few girls who have the power to make me feel insecure about myself, and these women are my very best friends. It’s not because of their perfect bodies and looks, not because of their abilities to charm everyone they meet. It’s because, my band of bad bitches have the most ridiculous mental capacity to do anything they set their mind to and they motivate me to always push further. Yet at the same time, these women are the same people who also make me feel the most secure about myself. They are always collectively my #1 hype(wo)men, the women who love me for my flaws, the women who encourage me every day, and most importantly, the ones who will be honest with me when all I want to do is lie to myself.
Surround yourself with those who make you aspire to more.
CC: @jessayeee @vivalastina @sara.choi @yasmeenx
Why do you like me? Why do you follow me (other than the fact that I have b00bz)? I’m supposed to come up with some kind of something to explain what kind of influencer I am, but I’m honestly not too sure. I don’t really know how I influence any of you to do anything off of a mere social media posting, so let me write this both for you and for me to figure this out.
I like to take pictures of people, and when I post them, I hope to influence you to find the beauty that I see in them and in that moment.
I like to travel, and when I post the places I’ve been, I hope to influence you to want to see more of the world.
I like to try to be funny (although my closest friends tend to tell me I’m not UGH), and when I try, I hope to influence you (TO THINK IM FUNNY) and to not take life (and me) too seriously.
I like fashion (though I would never disrespect true fashionistas/fashion bloggers and ever consider myself close to their level), and when I post an outfit, it really means that I felt damn good wearing it, and hopefully I will influence someone else to want to try it out and feel hot too.
I try to love myself, and when I post photos of little ol’ me, (usually ones
that took forever for me to decide on and that was probably scrutinized to the ends of each pixel), I guess must admit, the scared self-conscious half of me is hoping to influence you love me too, and the other half is hoping to influence you to think I actually am unafraid to love myself as well.
But, you all influence me as well. You are the eyes that keep me accountable for my progress. You influence me to want to take photos I have never tried before so I can show you. You make me want to travel somewhere I’ve never been, so we can explore through my lens together. You make me want to open up more and more, because I always hear so many voices of understanding and voices of those with similar experiences. Basically, you keep me stepping up my game, and in return, I hope to also give you none other than my honest, open perspective on life, and hopefully, we progress, together. #influencerLED
I was a self-hating, depressed, self-harmer in my not so distant past, who had been dealt some unfortunate cards as a kid and then took life in her own hands and...made it even more unnecessarily difficult. I chased chaos, did a lot of dumb stuff, and let myself get hurt because, I, for some reason felt like I deserved it. My pain, hurt not only me, it hurt those around me, but of course, as a self-centered youth, I never realized this.
Yet, each time life (or I) threw another punch my way, I survived. Each time I thought I couldn’t take anymore, I fuckin’ did.
I was asked to define what I believe confident beauty is, and explain how I created confidence within myself.
Confidence is the act of exercising a collection of muscles: muscles that are necessary to hold your head up high, muscles it takes to stand tall, muscles it takes to stride forward, muscles it takes to use your damn brain to understand what you’ve just lived through and do better, and each time you work out those muscles, you get stronger. Yes, sometimes you skip leg day when you wanna just sit down and wallow in misery, yes, sometimes your chest gets sore from holding your heavy heart up, but if you have the privilege of having yet another breath to expel, you will stop giving yourself excuses and get back to it.
So that, is exactly what I did. Each time I got through something, I realized I was stronger. I learned more about the world and about the people around me, making me want to be strong for them, with them, and I never wanted to let my self-centered self-hate hurt someone I loved again.
My confidence was created, forged, through fire. I’m confident because I know life can put me through the wringer, fuck me up, smash me down, and still I will rise and stand again, because I’ve done it before. And confidence, is beautiful. —
#creatingconfidence with @beautylaunchpad
You know what, let me tell you something about myself: some of my favorite...wait no....ALL of my favorite people in this world are certified NUTZ. They let themselves get crazy: crazy about their passion, crazy when they lack it. Crazy about control, crazy when they lose it. Crazy when they are hurt, crazy when they cause hurt. Crazy when they don’t get laid for a long time, crazy when they get laid too often. But most of all, they get crazy for love...all kinds of love...the miserable kind, the familial kind, the wrong kind, and the right kind. They let themselves get lost in it. They let their lives be defined by it. And I love them for that. I really do. •
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Modeled by @yasmeenx