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That was filmed this afternoon. Tonight I’m a little more emotional. The reality of that gesture threw me for a loop when I sat down.... and connected with myself. I’ve noticed that in my recovery I’m faced with mini-epiphanies that just haphazardly appear. It happened to me in regards to tolerance, forgiveness, patience, faith, spirituality, acceptance and today, in cleansing. The first year after the breakdown of my marriage I was a shell of a man and that shell was cracked. Beaten by life. I was unable to function. Living in feelings of inadequacy, rejection, betrayal, anger, blame, fear ... a tortured twisted soul in the ultimate pain. In recovery, this past year, I shed those things. I peeled back the layers to begin loving myself for the first time ever. I no longer hold resentments or anger. I’ve learned to forgive and to accept. For some reason I still kept my wedding ring. I still wore it for a while. I had convinced myself that if I didn’t wear it on my wedding finger, it didn’t mean the same thing. The fact that it was mine before getting married magically negated it’s symbolism. I often found myself touching it, sometimes unconsciously. I was doing the same thing with an 18$ Mickey Mouse ring that I bought on our first trip to Disney and subsequently wore for twelve years. I eventually took them off and put them in a box by my bed but they were still there. I felt like Gollum after “his precious”. It was only feet away. I could put it back on at any time. I toyed with the idea of pawning it. Selling it. Giving it away but I don’t want the bad “juju” to transfer to another person. So today I went to my happy spot to cleanse in recovery. Another milestone of self-love. I’m not questioning my decision or regretting or wallowing in self-pity tonight. I’m accepting that although I’ve moved past that era in my life, I’m allowed to experience feelings and emotions in regards to it .... and THAT is today’s epiphany.
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#recovery #recoveryjourney #sobermovement #soberlife #soberaf #soberlove #addiction #sober #sobriety #addictionrecovery #wedorecover #doingitsober #grateful #gratitude #alcoholfree #cleanandsober #alcoholic #addict

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There are worse things to be addicted to than lemon meringue pie...I said to myself as I ate my third slice of the evening.
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#cantstop #eating #homemade #lemonmeringuepie #fromscratch #pie #addict #forever

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Setelah 3 tahun lepas dari Gym, akhirnya mencoba balik lagi... Tapi ya ndak keras2 banget sih mainnya... *Abaikan tas pinggang saya...!!! ___________________________________________________
Supported by : @pocariid
#pocariid #borntosweat #goion #SweatGeneratION #pocaripurwokerto #PocariSweat #running #runners #instarun #triathlon #sprintdistancetriathlon #banners #forhealth #addict #adidasrunning #adidasindonesia #newbie #ilikerunning #0701 #diponegoro #runnevesrun #likeforlike #banyumasrunners #purwokerto #instapurwokerto #lovepurwokerto #indonesia #2018

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Try to stop my travel towards my baby #insta #love #enfield #addict

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I have a confession... I know I’m not supposed to but CANDY IS GOOD! #Candy #Yummy #Weakness #SOGOOD #Airheads #Sugar #Addict #OneDayAtATime #Confessions #Instagood #Sweet #Help

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ディオール気分
あったかくなったから?🌷
環境の変化で
気持ちも変わって来てるからかな?(笑)
昔ハマってつけてたDior Addict2。
ラストノートまで続く、
爽やかなフローラル系の香りが好き✨
私は日頃ブランド志向じゃないんですが
香りはやっぱりいいトコのが良い✨
また、このピンクが大人可愛いですよね(*˙꒳˙*)‧⁺✧︎*
#Dior #addict #オードトワレ
#eaudetoilette #pink #ピンク #大人可愛い
#freedom #imfree

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A little humour , with some serious truth 🙂

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✨Addiction✨ 'Addiction is a primary, chronic disease of brain reward, motivation, memory and related circuitry. Dysfunction in these circuits leads to characteristic biological, psychological, social and spiritual manifestations.'🙏 Generally when we think of an addiction in humane society we think of substances such as drugs and alcohol...and if we were asked to take a look at our own addictive behaviours we tend to jump straight on the defensive side of ourselves.🤷 But what if I were to remind you right here right now that our thought patterns ARE addictive too... "I need" "I'm not enough" "I must" "I can not" "I don't deserve."🤔 How often are you telling yourself the same ridicule? When faced with a repeating event time and time again how often do you tell yourself the same story? "I need" "I can't" Are you then left wondering why does this always happen to me, why is this on repeat, why am I playing out the same fucking story... AGAIN!?🙈 Because you are addicted! You are addicted to the self ridicule. It gives you an excuse. It feels familiar...safe. It gives you a reason for feeding into your own story, a reason to not step up. It gives you a 'why' you haven't taken the courage to face your own shadows head on. It is time! Let the light reveal it, let it in the gate, hear it, feel it and then...heal it. Stop this madness!🙅 Call yourself out on your own bullshit! Recognise your addiction, recognise you are addicted, recognise you are an ADDICT to your self created illusion and OWN it. Heaven forbid LOVE it. I hear you, I feel you, I am here for you, I know...for I am too an... ADDICT.🙋 Sending all of my heartfelt love and courage to ALL of you perfectly, imperfect, beautiful souls.✨🌙♓️ Love A.❤️ #EmpowermentThroughLove 📷 - @megsie_jane

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Working hard in 2018 💪💪💪

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Hello!My name is Menta and I'm an addict./Sziasztok!Menta vagyok és függő. #blogger #bloggerdog #mentavagyok #dailymenta #instadogs #cute #addict #mik #rescuedog #hungariandog #dogslife #shelterdog #adopteddog

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So yesterday this happen cruised up to see an old friend an check out her tattoo shop @ritual_ink had one of the best time sitting around an catching up wit some old friends ..an to top everything off @vandenbergtattoo just happen to be working we were all shooting the shit an he tells me to have a seat an with in 15
Minutes there was a pic on my arm an I was getting a tattoo ..couldn’t be happier wit it an how it turned out super stoked to go back an get more #bestoneyet#besidesbarbies😉#ritualink#tattoos#skulls#armsgettincovered#addict#betterthendrugs#therapy#moretocome#couldntbehappier

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If we could, we would use #malachite in every possible space . #addict! These lampshades are made to order and can be ready Ready to ship in 2-3 weeks.they come with the wire lamp shade rings, styrene
10 in stock at the moment. #lampshade #homeaccent

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Love the specials at Chicken & Sons Chatswood!! Pitty I missed out on this one... my friends were nice enough to send me a pic of this amazing burg “The Big Mark”
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Happy 50th Birthday @mcdonalds Big Mac!🍔🎈🎉🎊
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We have put together a tribute burger to honour the worlds most famous sandwich!
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🧀🍔‘The Big Mark ‘n’ Cheese’🍔
-🐮Double Angus Beef
-🧀Double American Cheese
-🥒House Pickles
-🧀SPECIAL SAUCE FLAVOURED MAC N CHEESE👀😍
-3 Piece Bread Bun 👔
Royal Stacks The Cheat meals of Melbourne burger. Was pretty good, tasted like a better version of a double quarter pounder
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#macandcheese #bigmac #beef #burger #addiction #addict #barbecue #foodporn #eat #eatfamous #sydneyfood #sydneyfoodie #sydneyeats #burgers #foodie #food #cheatmeal #sydneyburgers #delicious #burgertime #burgerlove #burgerorder #burgerlicious #instaburger #foodporn #getinmybelly #foodcoma #foodpics #foodpornshare #sydneyfoodies #sydneyeats #eeeeeats

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Vintage Blazer + Philz 🔥
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My current fav drink from #Philz is Peru Fair Trade. It’s BOMB! It’s not on their menu, so if you don’t see it there don’t panic lol. Where are my coffee addicts? 🙋🏻‍♀️ Please lmk what’s your fav cafe? I’m always down to try new places 🖤 #Cafe #Addict #WinterLook #winterfashion

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I have a new addiction! I made Kaleigh, Lindsey, and I 😊😘 #addict

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Easy like a Sunday Morning ☀️

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