23🌻| RECE🔠| Uh huh honey🍯
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Since my childhood, there have been many more occasions where a conversation could have changed things, saving me years of illness. If only I had known then, what I know now. Three simple words; it is okay. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been worrying about everything. Seeking reassurance from everyone and never finding a sense of confidence in myself. Chronic low self-worth and constantly judging every action or decision I make as wrong first and then right later when everything is ok and never feeling good enough for anything. After several years of that little merry-go-round, I got to a point where my normal was to see myself as too broken to fix and not worth anyones effort to try. So when I decided to get help last year after a pretty severe breakdown, I wasn’t surprised to be diagnosed with anxiety and depression, it almost made a bit of sense of everything for the first time.
I genuinely think now that my mental illness was an asset. I'm much more conscious about the need to achieve a better work-life balance; I now live in a more moderate, healthy way, with a shorter working week and less late nights. A couple months ago, I could not talk about my mental health without my eyes filling with tears of both pain and shame. Completely ashamed of myself, I fully believed the misconception that recovery from a mental illness was not possible. I never could have imagined I would be where I am today, let alone doing the work I am doing. I now try to embrace the anxiety/depression that has controlled me for so long.
There are so many bad things going on in this world that we need to be loving and lifting each other up. One way to do that is to understand things you don't struggle with. Be supportive of people with struggle and ask them about it instead of putting them down. Love them instead of harming them more. You could be the one to make their day better.
Heres to 2018: a better year! #roadtorecovery #gettingstronger #yeebud #ladyinred #sariri